When i came back home from vacation, i wasn’t quite sure what to do with these feelings. I did make a promise to myself a few years ago that i would do something about it if it ever came back this strong. I decided to keep this promise. I started to write a diary where i would describe my feelings and thoughts to calm my mind down a bit. On the internet i searched far and wide to find information about transgender people. a few things i found out was that these “gender feelings” i was having was actually called gender dysphoria and that not everyone had to have the same life story to be transgender. Always wearing dresses and already knowing that you were transgender at the age of 4 wasn’t really the norm.